My World of Wonders

The good first mainly because I really don't want to think of the bad (and it kinda scares me).

GOOD! I got a Camera! and not just a camera but it's a cam corder as well Canon DC 330. It's a really expensive camera but I got it (and mom got one too) for $339. As it is mom is paying for two payments. Brian said he'd pay for two payments and I'll be paying for a payment although I'm going to try and cover Brian's payments as well be cause he's working hard enough to try to pay for his last semester of school.

Also good is I'm actually selling things ^_^ to friends and family and my mom is buying things from me for others :) Chapstick holders, Hook holders, Amigurumi and my Aunt is buying one of my Chinchilla amigurumi's from me. I've written about 10 patterns and hoping to try and publish a book once i get about 20 or so. I've also made myself a weekly agenda thingy to see if I can post on my different blogs and things faithfully.

This will be my more personal blog because I don't think anyone reads it lol. My craft blog is going to be my Wordpress because I love that one. and I'll be updating my DA more often.

ok now the bad.

I really can't stand my brother and whats even worse is when my parents try the guilt trip thing on how "You really hate your brother and you shouldn't hes the only one your ever going to have." Well there are plenty of reasons why I should and almost none why i shouldn't hate Latest of which is that today he was about to take off with 2!!! of my PSones all cords and 2 controllers and pawn them at some store. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?!?!?!? He has stolen things of mine over and over in the last decade or so and I'm really sick of it.

I brought them here to my moms because I was going to use them to play a game or two while I'm stuck here. I'm staying here for a few weeks/month because My husband works down here and I'm quite literally terrified of staying on campus by myself. I'm actually really scared of being here in this house where that thing they call my brother can come and go as he pleases at any time of the night or day and gets away with everything.

He took that box out to his smoke/drug/alcohol infested car and  then came back in to do who knows what  with his neo goth  thing of a girlfriend (who is as screwed up as he is). I then a few hours latter realized that the cardboard box with my stuff in is was gone. I didn't move it Brian didn't move it I know mom and dad wouldn't touch it my sister is 12!!! so who does that leave left. So when I bring up the subject to my mother and pointed out it was gone she asks me what is she going to do about it. Mad that I was suggesting that he took it she stomped downstairs (after auguring with me about confronting him on my own) and asks him if he knows what I'm talking about and if he took it.  He looks right at her and says he has no idea that he never saw anything and didn't take anything. EXACTLY WHAT I KNEW HE WAS GOING TO SAY. so she comes back up and starts turning it on me. Then she remembers that she saw him walk out to the car with something he was trying to hide. Turns out he was going to take it and sell it about $80 worth of stuff that would have been gone if mom didn't see anything because as sure as night fallows day she would have believed the lie (we wont go into how many times she and dad believes his lies or how many times I proven it to them.) Yelled at me for suspecting the worst of him all the time and I would have lost that and been made out to be the bad guy.

As it was mom yelled at him and ended up crying and dad yelled at him and made them leave. Then they proceed to tell me how it's my fault and from what i get from them is that because I hate him he does these things to me and I deserve it. And them tell me to never go in his room. (I won't go into the pathetic argument he put up "well they don't want them" "she goes in my room and steals my stuff all the time" "she has no life" "why doesn't she go get a job")

Truth is I do go in his room periodically  but the reason isn't to steal his stuff it's to get mine back. Steals my psones, books, cd's, comics, games, other electronics AND GET THIS THE LAST BIG THING HE STOLE FROM ME WAS MY X-MAS PRESENT FROM MY HUSBAND ON CHRISTMAS. I don't think it gets worse then that. and from the yelling i was hearing from the basement looks like I'm not the only one losing things around here.

And to think not even a month ago I was TRYING to patch things up between us I made him copies of my movies and a t.v show and was try to get him into a conversation about things we have in common and he turns around and does this to me?!?!?! Yep it's my fault and I have not reason to hate him so much.

The other day he didn't go to work he left the house and was gone all day but didn't go to work or even call in. When I did that at CC I was fired now true I had only a week to go till i was moving anyway but not showing up and not calling in is grounds for dismissal in any line of work. Now he says that he didn't get fired but as we can see he lies a lot and easily. Not to mention that the next day he was supposed to go to work and I saw his car parked on the side of the road not far from the house hours later.  So he either is fired and needs money for gas, Isn't fired and needs money for drugs (Which I'm sure he's doing, I though he might be selling but if that was the case he would need to sell my stuff to get money unless he is a complete ass)

He is 19 and I know for a fact he has been smoking since he was 14 drinking since he was 17 and at one point he was growing something in his room in a pop bottle and I know it wasn't roses. mom and dad still pay for almost everything and help him with a lot more then they should and put up with a lot more then most parents would even dream of putting up with. He is a complete jerk to me and I kinda am waiting for the phone call telling me he is dead or in the hospital and being charged with homicide  (he will drive drunk sooner or later I know it)

He has the nerve to say to my face with mom and dad in the same room that he is better then me WHY?!?!?! be cause he has a job and I don't. Now lets look at this for a minute. He works 2 days a week and Wallmarts  Thats it!  yet he is out till 4-5 in the morning every night and even when he comes home early he leaves at 2-3 in the morning while mom and dad are in bed.  I don't have a "Job" that i got to every day but you know what... I own 2 (count theim 2) internet stores. now just that which is better do you think 2 days a week at a grocery store or own 2 stores hmmmmm..... You know not to boast or anything but I'd like to see how owning 2 stores means I don't have a job. Now it is true I don't make a ton atm from these stores but they have been up what a month?!?!?!   give it some time! However I have been selling quite a bit actually just not through the stores as of now I've sold in the last week and the things I'm sending out next week earn me about $80. I think thats awesome for "sitting on her ass all day doing nothing" :) Or course that doesn't include the hours spent swimming in the pool going to the stones with mom and hanging out at friends houses.
I think it gauls  him that I'm making money by "playing with string"  But you know what I love what I'm doing do you really think he can say that about being a slave to the average american for 8 hours a day 2 days a week. I'm sorry I'm using my head to make money and he can't.

In truth if I had a way to actually get to a job I'd probably have one but I don't so I can't. But I really like the idea of relaxing and being able to make money from my art. and just think If i design a few more patterns I'll be able to publish a book. A BOOK!!!! hows that for "having no life" it will really get to him if I can pass off the impression that I do absolutely nothing and get payed a lot of money and get sent places to have book signings where ppl come just to see me HA it'll kill him.

All the bravado however is to keep me thinking of how truly pissed off he was today at being caught red handed in his little thieving bit. I'm actually quite scared to go to bed at night. I just might never wake up again and the cops will find me with a knife sticking out of my head or a bullet through my chest. Of all the shit he has done I seriously don't put it past him.  I won't let Brian stay at this house because I don't want anything happening to him. I'm very afraid that my parents and sister don't know what they allow to live in their house.

I'd like to say right here that if something does happen to me that I hope they will look at Jeremy VanBlaircum first and do  extensive investigation on him. He should be in jail now but as he isn't I just have to watch myself and pray that he doesn't snap and go after mom dad and katelynn.

I've decided that I want brian to teach me Tai Kwon Do in hopes that if it comes down to it I'll be able to defend myself.
Plus it will be a great work out.

I've been putting everything on hold so brian can finish his school (don't see the thing going to college just wasting all his money on buying phones xbox 360 and shit for that girl) and we can get out and away from here.

I hope he will get hired (my hubby) somewhere in Europe that way Katie can come and visit and boast that she has a sister who wrote a book or two and lives in the UK or Scotland or something and that mom and come and stay with me and get away from here. And for the most part that if i have children they will never have to come in contact with my brother and that way I'll feel safe from him.

Later tonight I'm getting brian to come over (if i make it through the night) and get all my stuff and take it to his parents house. That way I don't have to worry about any of it going missing. I might also go over there to stay more often in order to be safe and not be one full tilt alert all the time and get no sleep.

Hugs and Kisses to everyone I hope I'll be able to post more good things in the future.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/bbc7/

Great place to go and listen to some Awesome comedy! I just love it. Listen to it everyday. :)

Brian likes it too I'm starting to see Britain  in our future. lol

I'm home, at my mothers house. I've got my bank account set up now on to paypal and then onto Etsy! I'll have both my Etsy and Cafepress set up as soon as I can now ^_^. and now that I'm going to be able to do that I'll be trying to keep this as well as my other blogs up to date now :)

One of the shows on the BBC7 that I like is "Just a Minute"  It's like 30 years old or so but it's still so funny I usually listen to the same episode several times a week till they change to a new episode.

Been all the way through the 3rd season of Doctor Who and can't wait to see/get then 4th. I'd Love to see the old series. Peter Davison who played the 5th doctor is the part I want to see the most but I'd rather start at the vary start.

Also got and read my first Doctor who book. "The Pirate Loop" It was great and I'm going to be getting another new one in the next few days or so.

Next update will be my latest amigurumi creation (she is so pretty).

I have been Hooked T_T I'm a huge fan now. and it certainly didn't help that I knew all the actors (except Chris and David) that had played the role of the Doctor in the past. I'd have to say Chris is my favorite though and I HATE IT that he left after only one season. Don't get me wrong David is great really funny love the way he took to the part but now I want to see everything Chris has ever been in.

I've watched to first two seasons and am going to be starting the 3rd today my friends did get them all burned for me as well as Torchwood but I will be buying them sooner or later along with all the books. I don't think she realizes what she has done lol.

Other then that I've just been doing more crafts. I've been making things out of that clay and can finally say I spin wool. On a spindle on wheel I know how to both.

Also my life has been turned upside down I saw a chinchilla I must have them! They are soooo cute not very hard to take care of I will have to fiend a special vet but i don't mind. They are so pretty and they don't smell at all. They get to the size of a common rabbit (not a Flemish Giant (which i want one of those too)) and they are the funnest thing to watch flying around the room. I've been doing my homework on them and hope to be pretty much and expert on them by the time i get one.

Oh and I've also been suckered into getting a facebook *sigh* all my friends are on there though so it's not to bad.

HUGS and KISSES!  

I was looking around to see info on my chewing the inner part of my lip and cheeks and found out some other things. I knew that cracking my knuckles was considered a bad habit but never knew twirling my hair was. I guess I just got to many lol.

the only one I was worried about was chewing my inner mouth but I can't seem to find much on it.

Where you can sleep till after 7 am without dad kicking you out of the couch bed to "put it up you've slept long enough"

lol  I love him though.

Anyway I've got lots of new stuffs including a sewing machine *jumps for joy* so lots of projects and crafts to do.

I've played around with it and mom showed me the basics so my first few projects are to make knitting/crochet needle/hook holders then one for all my jewelry tools.

learning to make little charms and hoping to learn to spin and needle felt soon too.

this year is going to be fun. and my etsy shope should be up in the next week or two :D

Got my Invite ^_^ and already decking out my profile Which if you can't guess is Kristalia.

Its a blast ^_^

Ravelry

Ahh and I'm going to have some more pretty picks by tomorrow to start putting up.

Emilie Simon is and awesome music artist go check her out.

Well he is back from Military service and as glade as I am I hope his hair grows back fast ^_^

Hugs Junnie!

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I just got a letter from a pen pal in Korea. In it she said something about getting a H.O.T cd. shes young so she wasn't all that into the latest News back in the 90's when H.O.T were the hottest boy band on the planet.

So needless to say I spent all day jamming to their music dragging out the old Vhs recorded tapes with their MV's and searching the web for some digital versions as well.

I'd have to say that besides the tearful (at least on my end) of Junnie's A song for lady performance (I swear he looks like he is going to cry.)  Castle outsider is still my favorite of all the MV's

Ahh and another thing I think 2 years is up and its HIGH TIME Junnie is done with his military service and about time for a new album from the Wicked rocker!!

What is more fun then throwing Snowballs at each other and more disappointing then hearing the words "the only thing your getting for x-mas is a lump of coal"

Well this year you might look forward to coal.

Snowballs and Coal

I know I will be.

hehe fuzzy as all get out they might be up for adoption If you ask nicely.